Saturday, November 21, 2009

Time To Stop Hiding

I finally took the time to sit down and read the transcript for week 5's meeting on emotional eating.  I've been constantly interupted by one thing or another this week and trying to view the video replay was just getting frustrating.  I wish I would have "made" the time to do it earlier.  I think I could have possibly avoided some bad choices.  A couple of days this week I went over my carbs, probably a little over on sugar too.  I wasn't tracking like I should have and I was definately eating emotionally.  I've been neglectful of my blog too.  I think I've been ashamed and unsure how to put everything I've been feeling "out there" for everyone in cyber world to see.  I have a tendancy to want everything to be perfect.  I've spent many a time organizing and re-writing over and over simple, every day things like my grocery and to-do lists!  A waste of time and energy and a way to procrastinate doing things I really should be doing instead.  In the meeting, the part about feeling disconnected from others and isolating oneself really hit home for me.  I've always been socially anxious and, aside from my husband and sisters, I have no close friends.  There are people I know, and have known for a long time, but no one I feel comfortable confiding in or feel that would be there to really support me if I needed it.  I don't know how to be close like that.  I've avoided it, in fact.  I guess I'm afraid that if people really knew me they wouldn't like me.  To avoid being rejected I don't even try to begin with.  I'm intimidated by others and feel I can't compare to things they've accomplished, their talents, their beauty, their sparkling personalities, their intellegence, ect.  I just can't seem to truely convince myself that I'm worthy of real affection.  I try to tell myself that my short comings are imagined, but with out much progress.  I've leaned on my husband a lot for reassurance and emotional boosting, which has to be draining for him.  He's still here, and still tells me I'm wonderful and beautiful, which I'm so grateful for.  To be continued...

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Great Website!  It's awesome for calculating all the nutritional info for your recipes.  You can even save/print out your own nutritional info labels like they have on the products you buy.  Pretty cool!

Dr. Oz's Faux Mashed Potatoes

Saw this recipe on the Dr. Oz show today.  Great way to stretch your carb servings- especially with Thanksgiving coming up!

Faux Mashed Potatoes

(4 servings 6 gr carbs/3 gr sugar/3 gr fiber)

4 cups cauliflower (fresh or frozen)

1 tbsp sour cream

1 tbsp heavy cream

1 tbsp butter

Salt (optional) and pepper to taste

Steam or microwave cauliflower until soft. Add sour cream, butter, half & half, and salt & pepper. Blend in a food processor or blender until smooth. Garnish with bacon bits, cheese & chives, if desired.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Normally I would be binge eating right about now...:(

Thankfully, I am not.  This has been a difficult year, financially, for my husband and I, as it has been for many.  Things were looking up until a few weeks ago when the new restaurant I had helped open became a feuding ground for the two owners.  Then business dropped off drastically to boot.  Now we're only open on the weekends and I'm getting a meager 10-12hr.s a week.  It's a far cry from the $2000 monthly salary I was told I would be getting (around here that's pretty good money).  I filed for unemployment but have been told, after searching out every option, that I don't qualify.  I may be able to re-file in January.  My husband is stressed out and working all the over time he can get, at a job he doesn't like.  It breaks my heart to see him so unhappy. I know we have the support of my family, who will help us out in any way they can. But my husband is very resistant to ask them for help.  This whole scenario would usually lead to me seaking out the most sugar laden foods I can find and throwing myself a big ol' pity party.  As sad as I am right now, the thought of doing that has only very briefly crossed my mind.  That's pretty amazing to me.  Appropriate timing, considering the topic of today's meeting will be emotional eating.  Hopefully seeing Jorge's enthusiasm will lift my spirits today.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Two Pounds Down!

Today was my weekly weigh-in and I've lost another two pounds.  Woo-hoo!  Of course, I was hoping it was more, but some is much better than none.  My "digestive" issues seem to be worsening however (to put it delicately).  I've only had one good movement in four days- and that was due to taking a laxative.  Sorry, TMI!  I used to be so regular.   But that was when my diet consisted of mostly carbs. Hopefully that will start to change this week when I start on probiotics and "bug juice".  Has anyone else seen a difference since starting the probiotics?  I know I need to start eating more veggies.  Maybe that will help.  On to another week and looking foreward to Monday's meeting!

Friday, November 13, 2009

It's Snowing!

Ah, the first snow of the season.  The holidays are really on their way and I'm starting to get that familiar warm, fuzzy feeling.  My mother suggested that this year we make it easy on ourselves and only buy gifts for the kids.  Now that I have my own, that's all I really care about anyway. It's going to be so much fun seeing her tearing up wrapping paper, trying to steal ornaments off the tree, and stuffing her little face with turkey:)  My association with food and the holidays is hard to seperate.  I know there are holiday staples (turkey being one) that I can still indulge in, but I'm still searching out recipes that can replace others that will be difficult for me to go without- like stuffing and mashed potatoes.  I'm curious to know what Jorge's Thanksgiving spread looks like.  So Jorge, if you read this, let us know!  All my fellow BFC followers too!  Here's a recipe for Pumpkin Pie that I'm definately trying out this thanksgiving!

Pumpkin Pie (6 servings...1 serving is 3/1)


2 eggs

16 ounces canned pumpkin

3/4 cup sugar substitute (I use Xylitol)

1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1/2 teaspoon ginger

1/2 teaspoon ground cloves

1 cup heavy cream

2/3 cup unsweetened Vanilla Almond milk

1 almond pie crust — see below

In medium bowl, slightly beat eggs. Add pumpkin, sugar substitute, all spices,almond milk, and heavy cream. Mix well. Pour mixture into almond pie crust.

Bake at 350° for 45 minutes or until knife inserted in center comes out clean. Let cool before cutting.


1-1/4 cups almond flour — see below

2 tablespoons sugar substitute (I use Xylitol)

3 tablespoons butter — melted

 In a medium mixing bowl, combine all ingredients and mix well. Press mixture into an 9 inch pie plate.

Bake at 375° for 10-12 minutes.

Variations: Substitute pecan flour, brazil nut flour, hazelnut flour or walnut flour for the almond flour.

 Per serving (including Almond Pie Crust):  8.5 g carbohydrates, 157.6 calories, 2.4 g fiber,  12.6 g fat, 4.4 g protein


To make almond flour: Place nuts in blender, food processor or coffee grinder. (Use only small amounts at a time.) Grind until flour or meal consistency. You may want to sift out the larger pieces to either discard or re-grind.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

20 Superfoods for Weightloss  This article lists a lot of the foods we're eating on BFC- even talks about losing belly fat.  People are starting to catch on!